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I dont know what's happening. But I really want to find out. I want to understand. I want to help.

Reading Lyn's blog like enlightens me so much on her life as a growing teen. I never expected her to face so many problems, especially with friendship, and so many different emotions. I never expected her to be so hated by her school friends, so disliked by people she actually calls "good friends" and so hurt by all the stupid words that people hurl at her.

I never expected her to be so badly influenced by the world.

I noticed she's been picking up little little vulgarities that I'm sure her friends use. Like she called the guy at the carpark gantry stupid, and I agree with Mummy that someone who's doing his job aint stupid at all. And today, she totally got her flare up and called us - Dad, Mummy and me - suckers. Like WHAT THE?!

Nowadays she gets angry and irritated so easily. It's not like I dont, but still. Her fuse is really short now. And I dont remember being so tantrum-throwing when I was her age. Though I still did and do throw tantrums. Whoops. :/

I really hope she gets over all this.

I dont want to see Lyn like that.

Did I not do enough in encouraging her?
Did I not show concern towards her?
Did I hurt her and make her feel like she's not important when I brushed her away?
Did she actually want to confide in me, only to be given an excuse?
Did I not lend her my shoulder when she needed one to cry upon?
Was I not supportive enough?
Did I give her unnecessary stress?

I guess, being concerned and encouraging her is one of the few things that I can do to egg her on toward her PSLE.

I'd rather lose some sleep or study time than lose my close relationship with my only sibling.

I want Lyn to know that I love her deeply, and that I'll ALWAYS be there for her.

In the past, now, and in the future.

Always.

That's my promise to you, Lyn, and it shall remain a promise through life.

Cause CHEWs, especially those educated in St Nicks, dont break promises.

Hold, or cut bow-strings. (:

&enjoyment.