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Wednesday, October 24, 2007

expressed my feelings; 3:49 AM


Just finished watching the FINAL episode - Episode 55 - of 終極一家! I'm in kind of a bittersweet mood now cause my favourite show has ended, but it ended nicely on a high note. XD And I heard there's going to be Part Two of the show!

Fifty-five hour-long episodes, every Monday to Friday, for eleven whole weeks. 終極一家 has made me like Fahrenheit even more, not to mention fall in love with Calvin even more. Haha.

And even though the whole plot was pretty out-of-this-world and unbelievable, but I watched this show like a five-year-old boy watching Power Rangers. Basically just believing everything and not arguing that it's weird.

終極一家 is one of the few shows that I fall madly in love with and go crazy over. And I believe it's going to be one that I will want to watch over and over again. Never getting bored of it. (:

Now I shall go watch the FIRST episode of 終極一家 over again. Like the way I watched 終極一班. XD

I will definitely buy the DVD or VCD if it comes out. Serious.


; 終極一家 <33

&enjoyment.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

expressed my feelings; 1:20 AM
Today Father Simon came to St Nicks to speak to the Sec Threes. It's called DAY OF REFLECTION. And since it's day of reflection, I shall do some reflecting here myself.

Well, basically this post is dedicated to ALL THOSE FRIENDS OF MINE out there! Actually all those in St Nicks, cause I really dont have much time and brain juice to reminise everyone and everything that has played a part in making me who I am today.

So to all my FELLOW ST NICKS GIRLS, this post is for you.

If you dont mind, you can press 'Play' on the imeem.com track below. Cause it kind of accompanies the feeling and ambience in this post. But dont forget to pause my Bu Hui Ai track in the sidebar...

She's The One by Robbie Williams

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GER;
Heyyo Bestie! And Darling. Thank you for being my close close friend for two whole years, and counting. Thanks for standing all my nonsense and randomness and crap. Thanks for being there whenever I needed it, and thanks for helping me through some of my most difficult times. Thanks for always having a clear and sensible train of thought, even in the most frustrating times. And thanks for every single thing you've done. There are simply too many to remember. Thank you for being you, my friend. <333

EM;
Babe! Even though we dont talk much nowadays, but I believe our friendship is still as strong as ever. Thank you for being my close close friend for one year now, and counting. Thanks for being there for me whenever and whereever I needed someone to comfort and console me. Thanks for not asking, but still caring and showing concern for me when I most needed it. Thank you for being my KAOSHAN. Thanks for being adorable and crazy. Thank you for being my sister-in Christ. <333

ZHUWEI;
Yo, Yao Zi! We dont talk much either, but you still have that very TALL place in my heart. Okay, I'm not making sense. Anyway, thank you for being my close close friend for one year, and counting! And thanks for being there when I really wanted to crap and be random. Thanks for standing my crap. Thanks for going crazy and high over Fahrenheit with me. Thanks for being knowledgeable and thinking when I needed advice. Thanks for showing so much 意气 when I was at my weakest. Thank you for being my tall friend. (And where are my four blue roses?!) <333

ABBY;
Jiro fan! Thank you for being my close friend for almost a year. Thanks for being crazy and going high with me when I crapped about Fahrenheit. Thanks for causing me to like Fahrenheit very crazily and being a super fan. Thanks for standing all my dumbness and randomness. Thanks for helping me to pass that letter to Calvin Chen. Even though you havent done it yet, but still thank you lah. Thank you for being a crazy Jiro fanatic. <33

BERYL;
Another Jiro fan! Thank you for being my close friend for almost a year. Thanks for knowing when to be crazy and when not to be crazy. Thanks for spending time sorting out the problems and troubles that a few of your friends were facing. Thanks for keeping quite calm and cool when the heat was at its hottest. Thanks for calling "MEL~!" Thank you for being my friend. <33

JAS CHUA;
Boo, tablemate! Thank you for being my good friend and my tablemate for two whole terms! Thanks for laughing every single day and making me laugh along cause your laughter's simply too contagious. Thanks for making my day with your crazy antics when I was down. Thanks for letting me know you better. Thank you for being my crazy and funny tablemate. <33

PANSHIN;
Peepoopartner! I dont go to peepoo with you much now. Cause we're all busy bees. But still thank you for sending me nice stuff and letters. Thanks for smiling whenever you see me. Thanks for letting me poke you on a regular basis. Thank you for being my dear peepoopartner. <33

SYLVIA;
Heyy twin soul! We dont really talk much, huh. But I think that the twin kind of thinking is there. After all, you're only one hour and nineteen minutes younger than me. Thanks for being crazy and making me laugh. Thanks for being the person I can celebrate my birthday with. Same birthday mah. Thank you for being my TWIN. <33
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She's The One - Robbie Williams

I was her she was me
We were one we were free
And if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

We were young we were wrong
We were fine all along
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

When you get to where you wanna go
And you know the things you wanna know
You're smiling
When you said what you wanna say
And you know the way you wanna play
(And you know the way you wanna say it)
You'll be so high you'll be flying

Though the sea will be strong
I know we'll carry on
Cos if there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one
She's the one

If there's somebody calling me on
She's the one

&enjoyment.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

expressed my feelings; 1:26 AM
If you havent realised, I havent written my annual BIRTHDAY POST. No, the song does not count. XD

Anyway, I'm in a good reflective mood now. So I'll blog this reflective post first. Before I lose the reflective mood and go all crazy and zi-high again. Cause I slept on the bus on the way home, and drank mango milk tea. That made me think and like, go into a reflective mood.

From my last birthday until now, I believe I've grown alot. Not in height or weight, I knew I definitely grew, okay. But more of emotionally and spiritually perhaps?

I believe I grown to think much much more, and even though not many people know about this more emotional and thinking side of me, but I guess I've been opening up much more to people. Sharing with them about whatever I can. And dishing out advice now and then. XD Guess that's cause my caring and giving side is becoming more apparent in my behaviour?

But that said, I think I've learnt to hole up my emotions too. And not cry as much. When I finally let my emotions out, though, it's like... BOOM. All the stress and tears and all just come out all of a sudden. Hence I should not hole up my emotions too much.

There was a period of time, around say, four months (?), when I kind of just hid all my emotions, because of something I choose not to bring up again, and didnt let it all out. Rather, you can say I didnt really know how to. It was just totally different from all past experiences that I have went through. And the good thing is, God carried me through it all, and brought me out stronger.

I've grown spiritually in that during Church Camp 2007 and the many services after that, I responded to God's call for me to grow closer to Him. I would liken it to a revival season, where I just came clean before God and promised to give Him my life. God's really helped me so so so much during my darkest periods.

And I've started to think alot more in a spiritual kind of way, using what I've learnt since young and all that I've read before in the Bible to pave the way for my life. Even though I know that whatever happens in my life is according to God's purpose, and He will not harm me, but it's just difficult to say, "I'll give up my whole life for You, Lord."

I guess that's where I'm sorry, Lord. Cause basically, I have my own dreams and aspirations too. And I really really want to chase them. But in any case, God, You still are Lord over my life.

I've turned much more optimistic in this past year too. Other than that emo period, I've just been like happy happy happy every single day. Being optimistic is one way I stay happy. XD That's also another reason why I zi-high every day. Cause I manage to always find a reason to go high.

But I learnt that optimism cannot be forced or imposed, rather, I believe it comes from God. Like during that emo period where I tried to force myself to optimistic and look on the bright side of things, I realised it didnt help, making it even worse. I realised I was kind of using that smile on my face as a mask. To hide all my wounds.

Optimism can be 治标不治本.

In conclusion, I highly believe that this year was a year where I grew much. No wonder Panshin told me last year, 'Fourteen is a year where you learn alot'. This has proved true.

In a way, I'm looking forward to being fifteen, cause I know I'll learn even more and gradually grow up. Nevertheless, there's that part of me that doesnt want to grow up. Cause I know how stressful it is to be a young adult. I know what challenges are ahead of me.

But that's perfectly fine, cause growing old is something you cant control, but growing up is.

明天一定会更好!
; i love my life.

&enjoyment.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

expressed my feelings; 4:52 AM
不会爱 - 飛輪海

只好让礼物安静躺在我口袋
远远看着你跟她快乐聊到笑开
当友情两字不足形容我情感
心情都随你转弯

耳机它轻轻吻我耳朵 爱情歌听不完
适合我们的从不是浪漫

你不会爱 我的爱 我明白
你的最爱 那一块 哪天我才存在
我不会爱 你的爱 受伤害
所以宁愿 安静的等待
(不怕空白 安静的等待)

只剩下冰冷空气陪我一整晚
寂寞却多到赛车根本无法动弹
一翻身我在半夜突然就醒来
梦里你的唇柔软

爱你我慢不下来 没有哪一天例外
跟自己比快 我会赶上你未来
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I typed out the whole lyrics for this song okay. XD

YAY. I love this song.

And I think I am becoming weird you know. Cause right, yesterday when I was doing AMaths and was like quite stressed and all, what I actually spouted was,

"I want Yan Ya Lun!"

That's SO fan chang okay. I believe I was and still am a Calvin Chen Yi Ru fan. Even though I quite like Aaron Yan due to Zhong Ji Yi Ban/Jia. Yep.

Am currently waiting for ISWAK 2 to come out. Even though I havent watched ISWAK. But yeah, I should be able to survive.

END-OF-YEAR EXAMINATIONS ARE OVER. -cheers whoops rejoices-

&enjoyment.

Monday, October 8, 2007

expressed my feelings; 1:13 AM


This is the exact reason why I get so high watching Taiwanese Idol Dramas.

This is also the exact same reason why I love watching teevee.

This is also one of the reasons why I love Fahrenheit. <33

This is definitely one way to DESTRESS. Haha. XD

It's even better when you've just gone through your History Elective paper. XD
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Daddy shared with me about some principle which I find is quite true. It's called the 80-20 Principle. There's a book on it.

The 80-20 Principle works like this: For example, you will spend 80% of your time studying on only 20% of your subjects or topics in that subject. Because you are already very familiar with the other 80% of the subjects or topics.

Another example: 80% of the problems in your life are caused by only 20% of the people in your life. And 80% of your happiness comes from only 20% of the things you do.

So basically everything in life is based on this 80-20 Principle.

Don't believe it? Think about it! I believe it's true.

&enjoyment.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

expressed my feelings; 11:27 PM
I am officially pissed.

It's rare for me to get pissed. Usually it's only until irritated, annoyed or frustrated. But this, this is IRRINOYTRATED. There's no such word, I know. I'm irritated annoyed and frustrated to the highest possible temperature. I'm going to boil and become a gas soon. XD

So let me get over my irratation annoy and frustration. Thank you. XD

You can stop reading here if you dont want to listen to angry stuff spouting from the mouth of Melody Chew.

How can you be so irritating?! I really cannot understand. You are even more childish and annoying than my sister. And my sister is eleven okay. YOU ARE FIFTEEN. I can forgive my sister cause she's still a young little girl, but you're not! You're already a teenager. So stop acting like a three-year-old.

Your asking about every single thing we do is just... There's no word or phrase that can describe exactly how annoying you are. And those questions you ask are definitely just to irritate us okay. Dont tell us you're trying to get our attention. Let me tell you. WRONG WAY.

And how can you scold so many bad words about people whom I speculate you havent even tried to make friends with? Obviously you're just basing eveything you know on what you've heard and whatever. Which might not be true. So if you havent even tried to speak to that person and make friends with her, then dont even say anything! No one will think you are dumb if you dont say anything, okay.

Lastly, if you have nothing nice to say, just keep your mouth shut. Please be more sensitive to what others are sensitive about. Act like you at least accept them and not put them down every time you can. If I were a little more crazy about them, I would really have become absolutely furious and turned nasty.

I believe she's also trying her very very best to stand you. And she has such a better temper compared to me. So dont take her treating you nicely for granted. She's been sitting with you for TWO TERMS. I would have requested for a change of seat like three weeks into it okay.

Just shut up, and if you can, stay out of my school life. Thankyou.

&enjoyment.

Monday, October 1, 2007

expressed my feelings; 8:48 PM
Okay I dont know what's wrong with my blog html. Why is everything in BOLD? Anyway, just bear with it, cause I havent found another nice blogskin that suits me. And you know, I tend to get attached to my blogskins. XD

So bear with it for now please. Thankyou.

For my birthday, my darling Ger gave me a super nice (and expensive) card. And inside she had written the lyrics to this song below. It's really really nice and kind of describes our friendship really well... Eh I almost cried okay. Due to this song.
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梦想号 - 棒棒堂

还好 你始终没落跑
还配着我一起熬
眼泪 你装作没看到
拼命耍宝逗我笑

把做梦当目标
发呆当思考
没什么不可能做到
当放弃的念头 快收拾不了
我知道后面有你罩

Play now! 我们青春大清早
快加入 梦想号
银河正在涨潮
伸手就能摘到口袋里
星星在闪耀

Play now! 制服绣满了骄傲
不离弃梦想号
是你让我知道
我可以很重要
我的光 世界看得到

抓牵 这一刻最重要
降落在快乐跑道
前面 是欢迎的人潮
意想不到的荣耀

白日梦的气泡
居然没破掉
你把它变成保护罩
我默念的祷告
居然都秦效
我懂了 是你的功劳

Now 突然停止胡闹
玩笑都变得重要
人生不是才刚刚挂号
怎么就要段考怎么就要思考
胸前的V是我的符号
牛仔裤当作战袍
梦想号不用燃料
用涌起便能起跑
快准备好放手
Play now! Play now! Play now!
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[ edit ]

I AM A FAN. <33

From this moment on, I am hence now a fan of AARON YAN YA LUN. *Cheers for myself*

愿意不爱你 is just. SUPER.

It shall now be one of my favourite songs. Right after 不会爱,出口 and 别说对不起.

Emily and Geraldine must be very happy now. Cause it's one more to their gang.

But Calvin Chen Yi Ru still is number one okay. That cannot and most likely will not change.

FAHRENHEIT. <33

[ /edit ]

&enjoyment.

music in my life.



BIBLE verse.

Since you are precious and honoured in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life.
- Isaiah 43:4

i'm just me.

melody.
260992.
CHIJSNGS.
yellowbadge.
classofTWENTYOHEIGHT.
FOURWISDOMIANoheight.
SNSB.
hornsection.
FOURTHhorns.

12 reasons to smile.
God.
family.
friends.
FAHRENHEIT.
myGOLDhorn.
DARKchocolate.
MANGOmilktea.
mocha.
anythingTERIYAKI.
sleeping.
eating.
slacking.

talk; i'll listen.



pengyous.

GEMZ <333
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QIUZU
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Seriously.

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