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THIS IS MY LAST POST OF THE YEAR.

And I have a few things I want to say.

Firstly, this is also my SIXTY-FIRST post, with my previous one being the sixtiest post. I've hit sixty like in only a few months, as compared to my one year plus in -justbeingmyself. Secondly, it's the SECOND LAST DAY OF THE YEAR, which means that my 2007 is going to end very very soon. In a little more than 24 hours. Thirdly, I havent finished my homework, let alone start reading up or revising the past year's work. ):

Okay. So this post is a rather reflective one, it being the last post of the year and all. I'm in a pretty reflective mode, thankyou.

TWENTYOHSEVEN has been a great, fun and pretty fulfilling year for me, in most aspects of my life. I've done pretty well academically, though not reaching my goals, YET. And spiritually I've grown a whole lot, and I'm closer to God now. Praise God! Emotionally, I definitely have grown up, through some mild depression and all. I've enjoyed my year.

Friendship wise, I think it's been a good year as well, me making quite a number of new friends in threewisdom. And strengthening the friendships with GEMZ and other very important friends in my life. (:

Fahrenheit wise, I've grown too! Now they're just like eyecandy. I'm serious kay. Really lah. Okay you people dont believe me. FINE. ((:

感情 wise... ERM. *smiles really sweetly* Just. Shh. I shall not say anything. I... Okay no more. (:

This is my twentyohseven. And I enjoyed it thoroughly.

I'm at a loss for words. Why does it always happen when I think of... Okay forget it.

BYEE TWENTYOHSEVEN. <33

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MELODYCHEW has changed her blog music again. AGAIN. XD

It's now the newest single from FAHRENHEIT'S upcoming album, to be released on 4 January 2008. (: The title of this song is 新窩 Xin Wo. Sung by Fahrenheit and SHE. Fast and upbeat, big difference from the heartwrenching crooning of Show Luo and the mandopop ballad by Fahrenheit. (:

I sound like some promoter of their album. Well, I've already pre-ordered it, so perhaps that gives me some right, HUH. XD

But hols are ending real soon. I dont want them to end. Cause it'll just be another semi-colon to my happening life, marking down an end to a really happy and fun time this year. I'll miss HISC and every single person there. <33

I've gotta start homework soon. Like now. SIGH.

Lastly, presentinggggg... 新窩!!!
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Fahrenheit SHE - New House

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I am pissed, happy, cheerful, filled with romance, and lots of inspiration. ((:

Okay that probably doesnt make much sense. But yeah, yeah.

And anyway, I think that whatever I've been feeling towards _____ (I bet you people know okay) is just... Infatuation.

I koped this from Joelle's blog. (:

Infatuation is the state of being completely carried away by unreasoning passion or love; addictive love. Infatuation usually occurs at the beginning of relationship when sexual attraction is central. It is characterized by urgency, intensity, sexual desire, and anxiety, in which there is an extreme absorption in another. It is traditionally associated with youth.

However, infatuation doesnt always revolve around sex. It may also be defined as an extreme want to simply be around someone. Infatuation could also be a crush, the urgent want to develop a relationship with someone.

Infatuation obliges the person to concentrate on the "object of their affection," therefore, this makes the infatuated person continually think of their "crush." This is seen as all-consuming, which is therefore easily interpreted as love, bringing the afflicted person to proclaim statements such as: "I love..." when they are (generally) romantically infatuated. This inability to identify between infatuation and love brings about the commonly-used phrase: "Love is blind" as the person involved finds it difficult to concentrate on other matters or see fault with the person(s) they admire.

Therefore, this proves that I'm not in love/like with _____, but it's just infatuation. NOT BASED ON SEXUAL DESIRE, okay. I'm NOT that tainted. (:

And actually, the feelings kind of dimmed and faded away yesterday. I wont say what caused it. I'm pretty sure Calida Chua will know.

So yeah. It's just been a time of holiday infatuation. I can't say summer infatuation, cause Singapore's definitely not undergoing summer now. It's the monsoon season! (:

And haha, I think Kevin See and his friend have the impression that the SN HISC girls are like les or something. Though that usually happens if you dont know us well. (:

I'm not les, I'm more. (:

Okay I'm going to zi-high again. Toodles! So I can do whatever I wanted to do before I read Joelle's blog. (:

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WARNING. This post is going to be a random and crazy and high one. Dont read it if you think that you will puke due to the roller coaster style emotions. ((:

I totally fabulously LOVE HIS Connection kids! They are so so so CUTE and ADORABLE. XD And the helpers there are darn nice too. I enjoy myself whenever I go there.

And the summary of today is: I...
Got tricked by Calida and Joelle and niangeefied.
Was embarrassed.
Got scolded LOUSY and GULLIBLE.
Kicked niangeefied in the tummy (?) and ahemahem. (:
Poked laorenjia.
Was traumatised by Joelle.
Made Christmas cards and got my right index finger covered with white glue.
Called Heli and told her I 叫爽 de. (:
Ate NASI LEMAK. XD
Got teased by Calida and LingYee.
Cam-whored with Calida and HIS kids! ((:
Laughed and laughed and laughed. XDD

I love it. <33

Ger, too bad you werent here today. You missed the JING DIAN HUA MIAN of me kicking niangeefied. And causing him not to have Father's Day. (Calida's description, thankyou. I personally DO NOT agree)

Andand. Now I am like... Okay I shall not write it here. But the thing is, I will be like teased and all. BOO. Ger, I will tell you.

I realised that this blog is NOT SAFE. Calida and Joelle come to this blog. SHEESH.

I shall not 透漏 anything else about my days in HIS.

Calida Chua, PICTURES!

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NOW THAT YOU'RE NEAR - Hillsong

I STAND BEFORE YOU LORD
AND GIVE YOU ALL MY PRAISE
YOUR LOVE IS ALL I NEED
JESUS YOU'RE ALL I NEED

MY LIFE BELONGS TO YOU
YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE FOR ME
YOUR GRACE IS ALL I NEED
JESUS YOU'RE ALL I NEED

HOLD ME IN YOUR ARMS
NEVER LET ME GO
I WANNA SPEND ETERNITY WITH YOU

NOW THAT YOU'RE NEAR
EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT
EVERYTHING'S SO DIFFERENT LORD
I KNOW I'M NOT THE SAME
MY LIFE YOU'VE CHANGED
I WANT TO BE WITH YOU
I WANT TO BE WITH YOU

AND I WILL SING FOR YOU ALWAYS
CAUSE IN YOUR PRESENCE GOD
IS WHERE I WANT TO STAY

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Camp booklet! Seriously rocks. YPM Camp Comm is gonna give Church Camp Comm a run for their money. (:
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YO. I'm back from RAIN CAMP. XD Renewed and refreshed, by God's spiritual RAIN.

RAIN CAMP is such an ironic name okay. It's supposed to mean God raining down on all of us in the camp. But then it was like raining yesterday. (: So it's RAIN in the literal and spiritual sense. Actually, it's still raining now.

I decided to blog first before I conk out and sleep for like I-dont-know-how-many hours cause it has been a really really really good experience! And I'm talking spiritual sense. Games... Were never my cup of tea in camps. They show the worst side of people. (:

Sermons were oh-so-GOOD. The camp speaker was Pastor Glenn Lim! XD I've heard of his story and watched videos of his story, and I'm intending to buy his autobiography - Wake Up Call. The sermons that he shared were so impactful and really hit me right there, right in the deepest part of my heart.

And HOLY SPIRIT NIGHT. The whole highlight of the camp which I look forward to every single year! It was so wonderful, I cannot find appropriate words to describe what I felt and what I experience. God's presence was so tangible.

I dont really want to elaborate on Holy Spirit Night cause I'd rather keep it to myself. And it was all God and me. Just God and me. That's why I dont really want to share. (: But God is so good. God is so good.

When I was kneeling before the altar, eyes shut, I could really feel and sense that God was right before me, right beside me. And that kind of feeling is really nice. I almost didnt want to open my eyes, cause it just rocks. XD

Also, Pastor Glenn talked about Christ's love for each and every one of us. It never dawned on me before that His crucifixtion was such a terrible and excruciating process. [Note: excruciating is derived from crucifixtion.] And when Pastor Glenn showed a three-minute clip of The Passion of The Christ to us, I just... Seriously broke down.

Now, I understand what it means by LOVE.

Plus, during Holy Spirit Night, there was a segment that we had to await a word and a name from God, then go and pray for that person. And I received a really strong feeling from God that I had to pray for this person that I know, but am not really close to. So I went to pray for her, and when I had just started praying, she just broke down... And I know it's God working through me to get to her. Just a very very good and comforting feeling. (:

Overall, RAIN CAMP was definitely a great great great great great experience. <33
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There are many many verses Pastor Glenn shared with us. I shall just put two excerps here, cause it's really alot. But, feel free to ask for notes! I was diligent. (:

"Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven - for she loved much. But he who has been forgiven little loves little." - Luke 7:47

Powerful verse. Cheem.

This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son into the world that we might live through him.
This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins.
- 1 John 4:9-10

THIS IS LOVE. <333 [to infinity, please.]

Plus the whole of Isaiah 40. It's a really great chapter. Brings out the WOW.

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PACKED today. Not for Rain Camp; havent gotten down to it yet. (: Rather, I packed the whole table in the study room that has been conjested with the stuff of yours truly ever since 2007 started.

And I cleared like more than half of the mess. Am so happy with it. XD

My wonderful box with all the stuff I used in Sec Three! Consists of textbooks, other school books, assessment books, ten-year series, O level guide books, and three dictionaries. (:

I see my Chem and Bio textbooks. Lovely. <3

Files! All the files I used this year, minus the Mathematics file which I havent bought, and three of last year's files. (: See Chem file and Bio file (the two on the extreme left) obviously have the most papers in them. Gorgeous. <3

Why?! You heartbroken ah!

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Rudest comment I've heard as of my time in HIS: _____'s girlfriend is Melody jiejie.

And when I say girlfriend, it's the les kind. What the. It is not funny.

I know, they're all Primary children and all, but then! They really know how to hurt people with words man. I've seen at least five girls cry in these past few days I've been there.

Problematic.

And, that same group of girls (girls, yes, girls) said that I'm very man. Which is, in ____'s case (different ____) is not a good thing. But I think it's okay lah. I'm kind of used to people saying that I'm quite man. At least I dont wear so much of cargo pants anymore okay. I wear jeans now!

But then, that's the reason why I like niang guys like Calvin Chen and ____ (the latter).

Sigh. I have to do up some powerpoint presentation for my HIS group. Today. Now.

Any queries, dont ask. I'm just pretty irrinoytrated now.

The Marriage is a nice fanfic. Shall go read the epilogue. (:

And I hope Ger, Calida and Joelle dont read this post. Cause I bet they know who the latter ____ is. Darn it.

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Just woke up from a fulfilling TEN hours of sleep. ((: I slept at midnight yesterday okay.

Wedding dinners! I totally enjoy them. Even though we were like at some spare table cause there weren't enough seats and all. But still, the food rocked. My family is seriously rich. Not my direct family, my granduncle's family. (:

And I finally found out the order of my biew sokes (表叔) and biew yis (表姨). It's all in Cantonese lah, so yesterday I was in total Canton mode. Which rocks.

My biew sokes are all so charming and charismatic. Suave, according to my mummy, who is their cousin. (: And they're all like... Dont look like their age. That must be what drinking Bird's Nest like drinking plain water does to you. Hmm.

Rich people. XD I'm glad that I have relatives like that, so I can eat like alot alot alot of good food in one night. Even though these kind of nights are always very far apart. ):

Anyway, yesterday Rev Dominic Yeo from Trinity CC came to LSBC to preach. His sermon was great. Really touched my heart deeply and all.

Rev Dominic Yeo preached from Luke 15, on the three parables that Jesus told the Pharisees. They were The Parable of the Lost Sheep, The Parable of the Lost Coin, and The Parable of the Lost Son. These three passages are familiar to me, having grown up in church, but Rev Yeo brought out a whole different aspect of the parables that I've never realised about before.

See, in The Parable of the Lost Sheep, it's one in one hundred that goes missing. Which makes it only 1%. In The Parable of the Lost Coin, it's one in ten coins, making it 10%. Whereas in The Parable of the Lost Son, it's 50%, one out of two sons.

Therefore, this shows us that with COMPASSION, like the shepherd who left his 99 sheep to look for the lost one, we can bring 1% of the people we know to Christ. With INTENT, we can bring back 10% of the people we know to Christ. Lastly, with GRACE, we are able to get 50% of the people back to Christ.

Hence this is the equation that Rev Yeo used to sum it all up.

Compassion = 1%
Compassion + Intent = 10%
Compassion + Intent + Grace = 50%

I shall set my heart on doing it. XD

Next week's Rain Camp! 8 to 10 Dec! Dont call me, I'll be having a whale of a good time basking in the Lord's presence! <33333

And I shall now turn random. Okay this is the first, and perhaps last random thing I shall say in this blogpost. I have come up with a new funny quote. Or whatever. Calvin fans, dont kill me cause I'm a Calvin fan too. (:

Calvin's not GAY, he's LES. XD

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