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Pictures! <33

The HORN BEAR and my horn! Bet Yiing Huey didnt know this is my horn when she took the photo! Ahahahaha, so now you know. I'm the only one of the gold horn blowers that uses the silver mouthpiece. Cause abit my mouth too small. (:

Section photo! One of the many that we took in that camwhoring session. (: Somehow it reminds me of Fahrenheit's first album... One of the xuan chuan picture they had. Just that this one has so many more people in it. (:

Another section photo! The drawing on the board is done by our section ASL cum artist Lijie! Cute drawing. I love my section! <3

My dear dear FOURTH HORNS! <33 Veronicababy and Gracebaby! And their Melodymummy who loves them from the bottom bottom of her heart and is like the nicest one out of the three of them! (: FOURTH HORN LOVE.

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So many things have happened this week.

Happy ones, sad ones, bad omens (apparently), and fun ones.

Well, something that really struck SN girls this week was our SEVENTYFIFTH anniversary mass on Wednesday. I dont know about others, but I feel that it's like a really memorable experience, what with the birds (budgies, according to Lijie) and all. And it's like significant of the YELLOWBADGE not being able to score well in Os and causing the school to drop to Band 2.

I hope not. )): But still, what I feel about that second, smaller, more timid bird being rescued is also very significant to me. Cause I suddenly had this thought that no matter what happens in the real world, SAINTNICKS will always be there for me as my 避风港. And that's such a comforting and touching thought. I almost cried there on the spec stand.

At night, I was talking to Mummy about the events in the day, and I just started crying. All of a sudden I had this really great longing for StNicks. I missed StNicks so so so much. Every single thing that I knew I would miss when I leave StNicks at the end of the year. I know, it's like only January, but I'm really thinking of how I would feel when I leave in December.

StNicks has given me all that I could have asked for during this four years of my adolscence. Life long friendships, nice teachers, and so much more. I've learnt to really love SN from the bottom of my heart, all down to the little gritty details. I guess SN being an IJ school also helps, cause well, there's the sisterly love there. (:

Yesterday, during sectionals in Band, I really enjoyed myself. I feel that we've bonded so much as a section after the yellowbadge became the leading batch. Lots of crazy antics and camwhoring really brought us together. You cant blame us, cause well, we have two really crazy and wacky people as our SL and ASL. ((:

Also, it's like the first time I have direct juniors! Like FOURTHHORNS. And thank God for giving me two at once! Cause I really like bonding with and teaching juniors, and treating them like my little sisters. (: FOURTHHORNS love. <33

Lastly, I shall just end with this sentence that I've heard since Sec One.

ONCE AN IJ (STNICKS) GIRL, ALWAYS AN IJ (STNICKS) GIRL.

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HEHE. I'm feeling loved. <333

Currently watching YZW on Yu Bai. I'm like seriously influenced by my dearie YZW, so much that I dont like YZW. But well, there's nothing else on TV to watch, so YZW it is. ((:

I know dearie doesnt like to have anything in common with YZW. Too bad, dearie, that's your name. You were born YZW. Unless you go add Chloe Annabelle to your name or something. Then you'll be CAYZW. (:

For those who dont know what I'm talking about, nevermind. Insider joke, heh heh. XD

I suddenly feel like eating Original Mini Magnum ice-cream! And Ferrero Rocher. And Starbucks MOCHA! WHOO. But well, according to my dearie Zhuwei, HUI FEI DE! I already ate sweet corn with extra butter after lunch.

Cannot lose to Zhuwei, cause she's jian fei-ing! She's like so skinny already, that stupid pokk. HUMPH.

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you. <3

Why do I love GEMZ? Just because they are. <333
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I shall succumb to my wilful desires and eat that Mini Magnum. ((:

Back to CHEM after Yu Bai! <3

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It's such a wonderful feeling. Sitting in front of the laptop, staring out of the window, watching the raindrops fall perpendicualrly to the ground.

I havent felt this in such a long long time. It's so nice to feel that relaxation in a busy bustling life. Where you know that you have so much to do and complete, but yet are still have that peace that everything's going to be just perfect.

Perhaps it's what music and crooning from your favourite boyband does to you. The reason why I like Zhi Shao Hai You Wo and Chu Kou is that they make me feel emo, but give me that sense of peace that I like enjoying.

And of course, knowing the truth that I'm God's beloved daughter. (:

Four tests coming up this week. It's going to be hectic. This blog's going to start having less priority in my life. That I know.

And right now, I'd rather be studying for Chem. Than finishing the Lit Whale Rider project thingy. Chem rocks more than Lit. <3

Back to Lit! Maori culture.

还有我 还有我 准备好的温暖 守护你
我的肩膀等你 至少还有我
还有我 还有我 准备好的温暖 守护你
我的肩膀等你 至少还有我

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I couldnt decide which of these three songs from FAHRENHEIT's new album I like most, so here are all three of them!

Okay, actually I like 至少還有我 the most. ((: Lyrics below!

They've improved. (: I've said this before.

And okay. Now I have to get back to my SS holhomework before TanCheng executes me tomorrow. (:

MATHEMATICS and LITERATURE tests tomorrow!
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至少還有我 - 飛輪海 (雙面飛輪海)

你在哭 对不对 逆着风向吹干眼泪
说不出的痛 越藏越多
还以为 给你翅膀 你的天空就完美
才舍得放手 让你飞

我像是你身后的风筝 断的线还缠在心中
偷偷跟着你 走害怕自由

Baby 当雪花冷藏了阳光 当彩虹开始结霜
你要勇敢 因为你还有我
当天堂都已被锁上 当空气压痛肩膀
先不要慌 至少你还有我 至少还有我

你在哭 对不对 背着光擦几行泪
心痛的姿势 不该是你
受多少伤 才能坚强 你的梦想 我都没忘
你飞翔 我跟着你流浪

就像影子黏在你身后 再大的风也不能拆散
紧紧跟着你走 谁要自由

别相信这世界只剩下自己
回头看看你身后 至少还有我

还有我 还有我 准备好的温暖 守护你
我的肩膀等你 至少还有我
还有我 还有我 准备好的温暖 守护你
我的肩膀等你 至少还有我

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Why is it that one only learns how to cherish everything around her when she knows they will gone soon, in a matter of time?

Why is it that one doesnt realise how important everything in her life - friends, school, CCA - until she knows she will not be able to see them anymore in just a matter of a few months?

Why is it that, like patients who are going to die, one only starts taking every single thing around her seriously when she knows that after Os they will all lead separate lives?

Why is it that everything seems so nostalgic now?

I'm starting to become emo. Darn it. But yeah, seriously, it has only recently started dawning on me that this is my LAST year in CHIJ St Nicholas Girls' School. The SECONDHOME where I've spent three - this is my fourth - crucial years growing up, learning, enjoying myself?

Take for example CCA Fair on Saturday. It dawned on me somewhere in the middle that this is my last one, that I wont be able to actually feel the whole excitement and psychoing spirit anymore. The strong band spirit that everyone feels during those few hours which usually make us drained and tired. Even though, yes, I can and most probably will return to CCA Fair and see my juniors after I've passed out, but by then I'd be a JC student (Hopefully a Victorian!) and that sense of belonging wont be there anymore.

In class, I think I've really started cherishing everyone that I count a friend. I dont know, the countless people that I interact with everyday. Ger, JasToh, CHUA, TanCheng, Calida, Natasha, TengPing, CHEWShuJie... And so many many more. It's like I've suddenly realised that I am part of FOURWISDOMOHEIGHT. Not JUST fourwisdomoheight, but rather THE fourwisdomoheight. It's just a very great sense of belonging that I feel.

FRENCHHORN wise, I've really gotten to know my whole section over the past few months. I know it's like a little late, me already be Sec Four and all. But I really wish and hope that my POP will be a wonderful and memorious one, such that when I leave SNSB, I will be able to bring along those gorgeous memories along with me to my next CCA in JC.

SNGS has really been a place where I learnt alot about friendship, friends, sisterly love, and that feeling that my friends would do anything for me. Also, I've learnt so so much about MYSELF. I daresay, and I believe it IS true, that these three to four years have been such a fulfilling time for me. I thoroughly enjoyed myself, from the bottom of my heart.

I know that this is probably nine to ten months early, but I know I'll really miss StNicks after I graduate. The TENDER LOVING CARE and concern that I've experienced here is really too much to express in words. There are simply no words to describe it.

All I know is that this memory of my four years as a SAINTNICKSGIRL will always remain etched deeply into my heart and mind. I made the RIGHT choice in picking SNGS over Cedar during my Secondary School choosing after PSLE. <33

To say it really simply, cause the simplest words contain the most meaning,

I LOVE CHIJ ST NICHOLAS GIRLS SCHOOL.

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So many things have happened this week. Although it's only like a three day school week. (:

Still, these three days at school made me feel by Friday that it's not the first week of school at all. The stress has started settling in, and I'm getting used to the fact that I have Os at the end of this year. TEN MONTHS. But I still love school, cause at least I have my GEZ and lovely friends. <3

PERFECT.

I'm waiting for that to happen. I must put in my best, and God will do the rest. And then this year will be PERFECT. In all aspects of my life. AMEN LORD!

Sidenote: Calvin's voice has improved! He sounds more like Aaron now. Trained voiceeee. And he rapped! He rapped he rapped! <33

YEAH. And so, I'm really happy now. It's just an unknown joy that I feel. No matter what comes my way, I know that God will always be there for me! And I can feel His tangible presence. It's SWEET. ((:

JESUS YOU RULE.

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I am in a <333 mood now.

I totally heartheartheart my darling babe dearie GEMZ. I'm serious, what the hell.

I shall digress for a moment, but 'what the hell' seems to be becoming my favourite phrase now. I said whatthehell at least I-dont-know-how-many-times today. What the hell.

But anyway, GEMZ is like THE LOVE now. Okay fine, to me it is GEZ. I am so in love with them. (:

Had GEMZ recess today! It's been a long long long time, my friends. Surprisingly, as a clique, we dont even spend much time together, let alone frequent recesses or lunches. It's usually always either two or three of us gathering. And there was no GEMZ gathering at Ger's house during Dec 07 holidays. I just realised. ):

I'm not really in a thanking mood now and all, but not cause I dont feel like it/I dont really love them that much, but cause well, THERE'S TOO MUCH TO SAY. <3

Just. Thank you for every single thing you've done for me. Thanks for every time you allowed me to seek comfort and consolation in you three. Thanks for the endless encouragement. Thanks for all the joy and laughter you've brought me. Thanks for making my once mundane life full of love. Thanks for all the times we've spent together.

Thank you for the love you've showered on me.

I LOVE YOU, GEMZ. Forever and ever. <333

I promise, I wont 见色忘友 no matter what. You people are my love, okay.

Let us JIAYOU together in this gruelling year of O LEVELS. We can, must, and WILL do it. Together. ((:

我爱你们！

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