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Friday, August 31, 2007
expressed my feelings; 5:17 AM
AH MM. XD
Today was a yesterday-very-late-then-declared holiday! St Nicks had a major power failure, plunging the whole school into DARKNESS. I only got the news at 11 plus when I was about to sleep.
But anyway, holidays are always nice. And I enjoyed my quiet peaceful morning. Watching zhong ji yi jia. XD
So went back to CVPS today! Met most of my old 6.2 classmates. Most of the guys came. Only six girls went back. Me included. And all the guys are like towering over me already! I'm like the shortest person in 6.2 already. BOO HOO.
Later on went to eat lunch with Jolyn. And then bought myself the SHE Play DVD! That's my birthday present to myself. XD I shall give the poster I got with the DVD to my cousin. (:
To all the teachers that have taught me in some point of my life or another:
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
By the way, Chem lessons on Monday are cancelled. XD
Today was a yesterday-very-late-then-declared holiday! St Nicks had a major power failure, plunging the whole school into DARKNESS. I only got the news at 11 plus when I was about to sleep.
But anyway, holidays are always nice. And I enjoyed my quiet peaceful morning. Watching zhong ji yi jia. XD
So went back to CVPS today! Met most of my old 6.2 classmates. Most of the guys came. Only six girls went back. Me included. And all the guys are like towering over me already! I'm like the shortest person in 6.2 already. BOO HOO.
Later on went to eat lunch with Jolyn. And then bought myself the SHE Play DVD! That's my birthday present to myself. XD I shall give the poster I got with the DVD to my cousin. (:
To all the teachers that have taught me in some point of my life or another:
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!
By the way, Chem lessons on Monday are cancelled. XD
&enjoyment.
Sunday, August 26, 2007
expressed my feelings; 7:36 AM
Through it all I know
That God is in control
Like the Sun after the storm
His love comes shining through
Yes I know His love for me
Is greater than all of my trials
Like a child in His arms
He'll carry me through it all
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God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
-Psalm 46:1-3
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Dear God, I thank You for all the people who have helped me out of this state of mild depression that I was holing myself up in for the past few months. I thank You for Emily, Jessie and Auntie Pek Cheng, who prayed for me and gave me so much encouragement to pull myself out of depression.
I guess I really need all this kind of people around me to pray for me, show me love, give me a hug now and then, and tell me that they love me. XD I need alot of TLC. Cause my emotions arent really stable, and I can be so emotional and totally illogical at times.
I thank God for Emily, who encouraged me even though she didnt even know anything that was happening when I smsed her late at night after I broke down. And sharing that awesome Psalm with me. I think she only found out like the next day when I wrote her a letter to thank her. XD
I thank God for Jessie, Gerlene and all my JIEMEIs who have been going to church with me, and even though I dont really show it, but I'm really grateful for all of you. Cause you've really brightened up my weeks and made cell enjoyable for me.
Jessie prayed for me yesterday, and even though it was a short prayer, it really helped me alot. Cause she prayed that I will not give up, which hit me. I broke down cause I was so like stressed and almost wanted to give up already.
I thank God for Auntie Pek Cheng, who prayed for me today during Altar Call. Auntie Pek Cheng told me that God wanted to tell me that I'M NOT GUILTY. Which made me really cry cause of every single thing that has been happening.
OH MAN I LOVE ALL THESE PEOPLE.
I realise that I cannot live without all these fellow princesses of God, that I must have these people to survive.
Thank you God for sending them to care for me and help me in this time of need.
I'm alright now. XD
That God is in control
Like the Sun after the storm
His love comes shining through
Yes I know His love for me
Is greater than all of my trials
Like a child in His arms
He'll carry me through it all
----
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
-Psalm 46:1-3
----
Dear God, I thank You for all the people who have helped me out of this state of mild depression that I was holing myself up in for the past few months. I thank You for Emily, Jessie and Auntie Pek Cheng, who prayed for me and gave me so much encouragement to pull myself out of depression.
I guess I really need all this kind of people around me to pray for me, show me love, give me a hug now and then, and tell me that they love me. XD I need alot of TLC. Cause my emotions arent really stable, and I can be so emotional and totally illogical at times.
I thank God for Emily, who encouraged me even though she didnt even know anything that was happening when I smsed her late at night after I broke down. And sharing that awesome Psalm with me. I think she only found out like the next day when I wrote her a letter to thank her. XD
I thank God for Jessie, Gerlene and all my JIEMEIs who have been going to church with me, and even though I dont really show it, but I'm really grateful for all of you. Cause you've really brightened up my weeks and made cell enjoyable for me.
Jessie prayed for me yesterday, and even though it was a short prayer, it really helped me alot. Cause she prayed that I will not give up, which hit me. I broke down cause I was so like stressed and almost wanted to give up already.
I thank God for Auntie Pek Cheng, who prayed for me today during Altar Call. Auntie Pek Cheng told me that God wanted to tell me that I'M NOT GUILTY. Which made me really cry cause of every single thing that has been happening.
OH MAN I LOVE ALL THESE PEOPLE.
I realise that I cannot live without all these fellow princesses of God, that I must have these people to survive.
Thank you God for sending them to care for me and help me in this time of need.
I'm alright now. XD
I'M NOT GUILTY.
DONT GIVE UP.
&enjoyment.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
expressed my feelings; 7:26 AM
Won't You Lord
Take a look at our hands
Everything we have
Use it for Your plan
Won't You Lord
Take a look at our hearts
Mould it, refine it
As You set us apart
We want to run to the altar
And catch the fire
To stand in gap
Between the living and the dead
Give us a heart of compassion
For a world without vision
We will make a difference
Bringing hope to our land
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Currently my favourite Christian song. <3
Lord, give me a heart of compassion to make a difference in where I live, work and play!
I want to stand in the gap between the living and the dead.
I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!
Oh yah. I bought a handphone protective cover. So I dont have to be so flustered now if I drop my phone. XD
Take a look at our hands
Everything we have
Use it for Your plan
Won't You Lord
Take a look at our hearts
Mould it, refine it
As You set us apart
We want to run to the altar
And catch the fire
To stand in gap
Between the living and the dead
Give us a heart of compassion
For a world without vision
We will make a difference
Bringing hope to our land
----
Currently my favourite Christian song. <3
Lord, give me a heart of compassion to make a difference in where I live, work and play!
I want to stand in the gap between the living and the dead.
I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE!
Oh yah. I bought a handphone protective cover. So I dont have to be so flustered now if I drop my phone. XD
&enjoyment.
Friday, August 17, 2007
expressed my feelings; 12:08 AM
Dreams. Have you ever thought about what they actually mean in your life?
I believe everyone has dreams. And I believe that dreams do come true, no matter how long it takes. I believe that dreams are what make a person's life worth living. I believe in living to chase my dream.
Even though dreams can be really absurd and out-of-this-world, but hey, they're still someone's dreams! And as respect towards that person harbouring that dream close to his heart, we should never look down on other's dreams, or critisize them.
I believe that dreams can make or break a person. They can give your life that spark it needs, and without dreams, life would be oh-so-mundane.
Do you remember when you were young, and the dreams that you dreamt were usually quite unrealistic, those that make you laugh at yourself for being so naive then? I definitely have had these dreams before, from wanting to become a teacher (not that it's anything bad) to Wonder Woman. It's true!
Over the years, I grew up, and gradually got over those childish dreams. Now, what I dream for is more realistic, but still what some people would call 'crazy'.
Being a teenager, and starting to think logically for my future, I would say that my dreams now are ones that could keep me interested for life. And give me enough income to stay alive. So although I admit that yes, my dreams can be quite out-of-the-ordinary, but nevertheless they are what I love and what I can see myself doing for as long as I can imagine.
Exactly what are these dreams that have stirred up so much passion in me? Well, I do dream to become a singer, to showcase my God-given talents to people, and share God with them. I know it's difficult to be a singer, but I've been having this aspiration since Sec One, so I've grown quite attached to it.
Also, I want to become a forensic scientist, studying pathology. I know many people would cringe at my mention of cutting up dead bodies and examining them, but hey, somehow I actually don't mind! Although I'd rather examine fingerprints and run tests on evidence from crime scenes.
I know that these two major dreams of mine are really absurd and do not have a big chance of coming true, but these are what I love doing, and what I can see myself doing all the way till I retire!
Therefore, I'm grateful to have a loving family who does not restrict my aspirations and dreams. My family is open enough to accept my less ordinary dreams, and even encourage me to fulfil them. And I thank them for being so understanding.
Friends, too, play an important part in inspiring me to chase my dreams. I'm glad and thankful that I have friends who, like my family, support my dreams and do not look down them. I'm satisfied that they take my dreams seriously. And in turn, I try my best to support their dreams and encourage them to take every opportunity to get one step closer to their dreams.
Dreams. That part of life I believe everyone has. If you don't have a dream, not even the smallest dream, then I persuade you to at least have one.
It doesn't matter if your dream is one that your friends laugh and joke about, or if your dream is totally 'weird', because if you chase your dreams, and manage to live them, you are already a winner. And you will thus gain respect from those whom did not respect you before.
----
Wow. I sound so compo-sy. Someone give me an A1 or something.
And today you have witnessed the rare-enough-but-not-really-rare side of Melody Chew. The side of Melody Chew that thinks, ponders, and writes.
Thank you for being so kind to read this blog entry. XD
Welcome to the other side of Melody's world.
I believe everyone has dreams. And I believe that dreams do come true, no matter how long it takes. I believe that dreams are what make a person's life worth living. I believe in living to chase my dream.
Even though dreams can be really absurd and out-of-this-world, but hey, they're still someone's dreams! And as respect towards that person harbouring that dream close to his heart, we should never look down on other's dreams, or critisize them.
I believe that dreams can make or break a person. They can give your life that spark it needs, and without dreams, life would be oh-so-mundane.
Do you remember when you were young, and the dreams that you dreamt were usually quite unrealistic, those that make you laugh at yourself for being so naive then? I definitely have had these dreams before, from wanting to become a teacher (not that it's anything bad) to Wonder Woman. It's true!
Over the years, I grew up, and gradually got over those childish dreams. Now, what I dream for is more realistic, but still what some people would call 'crazy'.
Being a teenager, and starting to think logically for my future, I would say that my dreams now are ones that could keep me interested for life. And give me enough income to stay alive. So although I admit that yes, my dreams can be quite out-of-the-ordinary, but nevertheless they are what I love and what I can see myself doing for as long as I can imagine.
Exactly what are these dreams that have stirred up so much passion in me? Well, I do dream to become a singer, to showcase my God-given talents to people, and share God with them. I know it's difficult to be a singer, but I've been having this aspiration since Sec One, so I've grown quite attached to it.
Also, I want to become a forensic scientist, studying pathology. I know many people would cringe at my mention of cutting up dead bodies and examining them, but hey, somehow I actually don't mind! Although I'd rather examine fingerprints and run tests on evidence from crime scenes.
I know that these two major dreams of mine are really absurd and do not have a big chance of coming true, but these are what I love doing, and what I can see myself doing all the way till I retire!
Therefore, I'm grateful to have a loving family who does not restrict my aspirations and dreams. My family is open enough to accept my less ordinary dreams, and even encourage me to fulfil them. And I thank them for being so understanding.
Friends, too, play an important part in inspiring me to chase my dreams. I'm glad and thankful that I have friends who, like my family, support my dreams and do not look down them. I'm satisfied that they take my dreams seriously. And in turn, I try my best to support their dreams and encourage them to take every opportunity to get one step closer to their dreams.
Dreams. That part of life I believe everyone has. If you don't have a dream, not even the smallest dream, then I persuade you to at least have one.
It doesn't matter if your dream is one that your friends laugh and joke about, or if your dream is totally 'weird', because if you chase your dreams, and manage to live them, you are already a winner. And you will thus gain respect from those whom did not respect you before.
----
Wow. I sound so compo-sy. Someone give me an A1 or something.
And today you have witnessed the rare-enough-but-not-really-rare side of Melody Chew. The side of Melody Chew that thinks, ponders, and writes.
Thank you for being so kind to read this blog entry. XD
Welcome to the other side of Melody's world.
&enjoyment.
Thursday, August 16, 2007
expressed my feelings; 7:51 PM
Everytime - Britney Spears
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
----
This song made me melt. XD
WHO SAYS I DONT LISTEN TO WESTERN SONGS.
I do okay. But I admit, I only knew about this song cause SHE translated this song into Mandarin and sang it. Oh well. (:
But it's nice lah. Very very very nice. <3
Notice me, take my hand
Why are we strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me
Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I make believe that you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song's my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so small
I guess I need you, baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you, baby
----
This song made me melt. XD
WHO SAYS I DONT LISTEN TO WESTERN SONGS.
I do okay. But I admit, I only knew about this song cause SHE translated this song into Mandarin and sang it. Oh well. (:
But it's nice lah. Very very very nice. <3
&enjoyment.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
expressed my feelings; 8:17 PM
Okayyy. I'm sick. Again. :/
With that old illness of mine. I keep getting it leh. The throat infection cum nasal blockage cum I forgot what else. SIGH. I think it's a virus or something. So antibiotics wont really work? Maybe?
I need a stronger immune system. Come on, you antibodies of mine! Jiayou with killing and destroying the virus/bacteria that has invaded my body. XD
Okay sorry. Bio student here. Live with it lah.
I was about to blog something quite intelligent here. Only to go super darn emo that night when I wanted to blog. About what? That's for me to know, and for you to guess. (:
Anyway, I'm in the library! And forsaking my recess. Well, this is called trying to slim down and trying to fast. But I need to pray.
EOYs are starting on 27 September. One day after my birthday. Dont forget my present. XD
Countdown to EOYs: FOURTY-TWO DAYS.
With that old illness of mine. I keep getting it leh. The throat infection cum nasal blockage cum I forgot what else. SIGH. I think it's a virus or something. So antibiotics wont really work? Maybe?
I need a stronger immune system. Come on, you antibodies of mine! Jiayou with killing and destroying the virus/bacteria that has invaded my body. XD
Okay sorry. Bio student here. Live with it lah.
I was about to blog something quite intelligent here. Only to go super darn emo that night when I wanted to blog. About what? That's for me to know, and for you to guess. (:
Anyway, I'm in the library! And forsaking my recess. Well, this is called trying to slim down and trying to fast. But I need to pray.
EOYs are starting on 27 September. One day after my birthday. Dont forget my present. XD
Countdown to EOYs: FOURTY-TWO DAYS.
&enjoyment.
Sunday, August 5, 2007
expressed my feelings; 6:44 AM
The Potter's Hand
Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure
All of my days are
Held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plan
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, I pray
Take me, mould me
Use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
----
Old but super touching song. XD
Okay. I shall blog about my dear group of friends cum sisters who have spent around 5 to 6 years with me. These people are none other than my gang of jiemei-men in Living Sanctuary Brethern Church!!!
We've been together since like P4, in the same JET class and all. And hanging out together in Teens. Even requesting to stay in the same cell. Basically we've been GROWING UP as a clique. And I'm really grateful for them. Cos it's them who never fail to make me smile when I'm bothered by school work or friendship problems. XD
So yeah, even though there have been some of our once-quite-big group who have left church and backslided, and we have been split into two different cells, but I guess our friendship has never really disappeared or faded before.
Now there are only about 6 to 7 (at most 9) of us left in this group of close friends, but we will still continue growing up, hanging out, doing stuff, together. I hope we will. XD
And even though I've kind of almost given up on you people before, but these few weeks and months I've been noticing that you're all getting back that FIRE we once had for God. Which I really want to see and pray for in our group.
Cause most likely you people will be my FRIENDS FOR LIFE. Growing up, then growing old together. That's the perfect friendship. And what I really want in my life.
So yeah. I really love you all. <33
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Second topic. Warning: Dont read this if you have the tendency to think of girls' school girls as boy-crazy.
I dont know why, but a few days ago I dreamt of (er) him.
And and that dream was like actually quite sweet, but when I woke up, and thought over it, I was like, "What?! So irresponsible! How could I have actually said 'yes'?!"
Okay that's what love can do to you. Or fantasizing can do to you.
So anyway, I'm starting to fantasize again.
ARGH STOP MELODY. STOP FANTASIZING. DONT EVEN START PLEASE.
If I make no sense, dont bother to even guess, okay. Cause I bet only GEZ knows. Okay not to mention Abby and Beryl. Yes that's it.
Emily Zhuwei Abby Beryl, I allow you to ask me about it tomorrow. Yes, I will tell you. I promise.
Ger, dont even think about asking me. I'll tell you of my own accord. XD
That's the good thing about being my bestie! XD
Please remind me not to fantasize okay? Thank you very much. XD
Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure
All of my days are
Held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plan
You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
Through Your eyes
I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart
I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, I pray
Take me, mould me
Use me, fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
Call me, guide me
Lead me, walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter's hand
----
Old but super touching song. XD
Okay. I shall blog about my dear group of friends cum sisters who have spent around 5 to 6 years with me. These people are none other than my gang of jiemei-men in Living Sanctuary Brethern Church!!!
We've been together since like P4, in the same JET class and all. And hanging out together in Teens. Even requesting to stay in the same cell. Basically we've been GROWING UP as a clique. And I'm really grateful for them. Cos it's them who never fail to make me smile when I'm bothered by school work or friendship problems. XD
So yeah, even though there have been some of our once-quite-big group who have left church and backslided, and we have been split into two different cells, but I guess our friendship has never really disappeared or faded before.
Now there are only about 6 to 7 (at most 9) of us left in this group of close friends, but we will still continue growing up, hanging out, doing stuff, together. I hope we will. XD
And even though I've kind of almost given up on you people before, but these few weeks and months I've been noticing that you're all getting back that FIRE we once had for God. Which I really want to see and pray for in our group.
Cause most likely you people will be my FRIENDS FOR LIFE. Growing up, then growing old together. That's the perfect friendship. And what I really want in my life.
So yeah. I really love you all. <33
----
Second topic. Warning: Dont read this if you have the tendency to think of girls' school girls as boy-crazy.
I dont know why, but a few days ago I dreamt of (er) him.
And and that dream was like actually quite sweet, but when I woke up, and thought over it, I was like, "What?! So irresponsible! How could I have actually said 'yes'?!"
Okay that's what love can do to you. Or fantasizing can do to you.
So anyway, I'm starting to fantasize again.
ARGH STOP MELODY. STOP FANTASIZING. DONT EVEN START PLEASE.
If I make no sense, dont bother to even guess, okay. Cause I bet only GEZ knows. Okay not to mention Abby and Beryl. Yes that's it.
Emily Zhuwei Abby Beryl, I allow you to ask me about it tomorrow. Yes, I will tell you. I promise.
Ger, dont even think about asking me. I'll tell you of my own accord. XD
That's the good thing about being my bestie! XD
Please remind me not to fantasize okay? Thank you very much. XD